"Bottom Line: What have you learned?" My boss is always challenging our Residents with this line. Educationally, we know that having to sum up the "take-home" message after an experience really cements it in the student's mind. So for this last blog, I'm going to try to draw from some observations and make some conclusions.
As I said back in January, my purpose has not been to compare New Zealand to the U.S., or even to compare medical systems. Although some comparison is inevitable I have tried to avoid thinking in this fashion. And I am under no illusions that I am here to change either place, or that I have the power to make much of a change. The question here is really, how have I changed from this experience.
I have been back home for 2 weeks now, and I have been welcomed back like a long-lost son. My first day back in clinic I got hugs from half my patients. Everyone seems happy to see me, and tells me "I bet you're glad to be back, aren't you?". And that's really felt good. Yes, I'm glad to be back, although I also miss New Zealand a lot. One thing I learned is that I'm not very attached to Cedar Rapids, despite living here for 12 years. We have some friends here, and my mother-in-law lives here when she's not gallivanting around the country. But I don't really have an attachment to this place like a lot of my patients and friends do. I didn't grow up here, there are no childhood memories, no exended family. Like a lot of Americans, I don't really have any roots in one particular locale. The place that I live is not a part of my identity- I can separate myself from that. I find it amazing that I could uproot my life and family so easily, and fit so comfortably in another place and culture so far away so easily. I feel a great sense of freedom about that.
Part of that is a boost in self-assurance from just being able to fall into a foreign practice and care for patients. I know I was feeling a bit out of touch, as an academic, with the day-to-day realities of practice. Having not been "in the trenches" for 12 years, it felt good to just be a doctor, see over 100 patients a week and experience that key exciting and terrifying challenge of being a generalist physician: i.e. never knowing what's going to walk through the door next. I like that challenge, I like relating to the patients and trying to understand their lives, and how life is for them. And it's helped me reaffirm that I am teaching my residents truely valuable skills. "Yes, computer skills will be critical in practice, but the trick is work the computer into a good bedside manner, to help BOND with the patient." "Yes, knowing how to look things up is essential, you need to do it with half of each day's cases." "Yes, prevention is really important, and building systems in office practice to facilitate prevention is the only way we'll ever get it done in medicine." "Yes, tracking your own data on your practice is useful to improving your quality of care." These were all things that I reaffirmed from my experience. And their being relevant in New Zealand, as well as in America., tells me that these beliefs are more universal than they are local or cultural.
I learned that I am a lucky man, as it doesn't take much to make me happy. We lived in a small house in New Zealand, with a wood/coal stove and "only" 1 car. It was not a hardship at all. I learned that daily exercise makes me feel better. I ate well, and lived a lower stress life, with amazing effects on my blood pressure. I have resolved to try to not be so driven or stressed, and to continue to take better care of myself, including getting adequate sleep and rest. I reconnected with my love of the natural world, and learned an entire new biology. Our walks in the woods and mountains, our nights under the stars, walks on the "ordinary" beaches of New Zealand put my place in the universe in perspective. I am only very small, and here for a very short time. And there is only this moment.
And I reconnected with the core reasons I became a physician in the first place. I remembered how I was originally admitted to medical school with a research background and an essay that could have been titled, "Why I want to be a research physician". After taking care of a struggling, low-income, new family in my First Year, I was seduced to join Family Practice. I liked patients a lot more than labwork. And it is the opportunity to sit and talk with people about their lives, and incidentally, their health, that to me is the core reason for becoming a doctor. I was lucky to have the opportunity to be a small-town G.P. in New Zealand. You can't be more of a physician than that.
This means I see with new eyes the effects of unbridled capitalism and consumerism on medical practice here at home. On returning to the U.S., some of the first concerns I heard were about the effects of malpractice on our health system. One of our local OB/Gyns has quit delivering because she can't get insurance, and our governor recently vetoed a package of malpractice reform. At the same time, an entire hospital system in the state has terminated its contract with an insurance administrator for the Medicaid program. This means that many low-income patients can no longer see their physicians or use their hospitals. An OB patient due to be delivered by Cesarian last week had just moved to Burlington, and had to come all the way back to Cedar Rapids (over 100 miles) to deliver because no one would see her in her home town. Our non-system is paradoxical. We have the best and most high tech medicine at some centers, and can truly perform miracles, but basic healthcare is lacking for over 10% of our population. We spend the most of any industrialized nation, and have the most unsatisfied patients. Part of that is high expectations that can't always be delivered (hence the number of lawsuits), but another part of the dissatisfaction is in being rushed and pushed though a system that too often treats the patient as a "head sheet" to be processed. And the financial pressures on this non-system will accelerate in the next 10-20 years. I've had a chance to think long and hard about what is ahead as I prepared my annual "Futurology" talk to the residents this week. I am sure we can do better than this in the U.S.
So what does all this mean. I'm not sure yet. Its too soon still to tell. Maybe I will move back to New Zealand in a few years. Maybe I will be more aggressive about challenging the assumptions of our current healthcare system. Maybe I can keep my blood pressure down by walking more. Only time will tell.
I have new stories to tell my residents, and new memories to make sense of. I've exceeded my objectives for this sabbatical beyond my wildest expectations. All I can say is that I can tell that I've changed from the experiences. And that was the whole point.
Our trip home was long and uneventful. Well, at least once we got to the airport in Invercargill. Saturday I realized early in the day that there was NO WAY we were going to get everything into our suitcases, so I ran down to town and bought one more at the Warehouse. That made 5 huge suitcases, so we were one over and would have to pay NZ$175 for the extra bag. Each bag could weigh only 32 kg due to ACC restrictions (to prevent airline worker injury). I had told Geoff, who kindly volunteered to drive us to the airpor, to "bring the truck". He showed up in his car at 0845 on Sunday and was surprised to see that it all wouldn't fit. "Not a problem", we loaded the stuff in his car and some in the Medical Centre vehicle and after a phone call, drove out to Paul's place to gather another driver. At the airport we hauled the bags in from the carpark, and queued up to weigh them. I had used the clinic's scale the night before and was worried as all the patients say the scale weighed "heavy" compared to their home scales. Not a problem: 4 bags weighed in between 31.5 and 32 kg, and 1 bag hit 32.0 right on the mark! Liz was rather oblivious to all this, having stayed up all night with her friends, who left at 3AM, then spending the rest of the night cleaning the house and doing final packing. We said our sad goodbyes, boarded the plane, and then spent the next 28 hours in planes or airports.
The high point was our layover in Christchurch, where it was a beautiful sunny winter's day. We went up onto the observation deck, those areas now only a memory in security-paranoid U.S. airports, and sat in the sun, enjoyed the clouds and the wind. The rest of the flight was mostly a blur of movies, sleep and occaisonal walks around the plane to prevent blood clots. I do have to put in a plug for Air New Zealand however, which has great food; the lamb supper was delicious and the eggs for breakfast were hot. Their attendants are solicitous and the plane is as comfy as it could be given the circumstances. So these things are possible after all.
At the end, on the last day, we kids would say goodbye, and tell each other "Have a nice life"; implying we knew we would never see each other again.
Since yesterday was the rare third day, at least in the morning, I went fishing out on the Foveaux strait with friends. This was near
It was just stunningly beautiful; a bit cold and windy, but with sun breaks. The mountains were all snowscapped in the distance, you could see the Takitimu mountians from the ocean, and the HumpRidge and Fiordland beyond shining in the sun under tatters of ragged clouds overhead. At one point we had a dozen mollymawks swimming off the back of the boat. We filled a large chillybin 3/4 of the way full with blue cod- they were biting like crazy. At one point I climbed up on the bow to pull the anchor, and I just sat there and looked around for 10 minutes, it was so beautiful and wild and untamed. It took my breath away.
I'm not sure who did all the organizing of things for the young people this last weekend, but my admiration for their organization is unbounded. The evening began with a "supper" from 5:30 to 7:30, which was really a chance for everyone to admire everyone else's outfits, and for parents to quickly pop in, grab their photos, and pop out. It was held in a little hall and garden place 5 km down the road from Winton. I took my pics and left the kids to it. Liz reports that The Ball, an "official school function" ran from 7:30 to Midnight. There was no alcohol at this dance, which was held in the Memorial Hall in downtown Winton. The theme was "Bonnie and Clyde", so some of the kids were dressed in retro-30's fashions I've heard. The Ball had a live band, and there was dancing, so much that they complained of sore feet. Then, after the Ball, Liz and her friend returned home (where I was falling asleep watching an old film noir from the 50s on the telly) to change clothes. Then off again to the police station, where chartered buses took them to the After Ball party. Now this affair is "NOT an official school function", so alcohol is permitted, but only beer and premixed drinks (no bottles of whiskey, etc). The police have been notified and approve of the functions, and they escort the buses to the hall, which is held in a [wiggle fingers] secret location [end wiggling fingers]. No one knows where the After Ball is going to be until the buses arrive. (It was held at the Drummond Community hall, about 7-8 km from town). One at the After Ball, the young folks are allowed in the hall, but not back out again until the party if over. This is enforced by 8 huge ex-rugby players who are hired as bouncers for the event. The goal is to prevent party crashers, drink drivers, fights and general disruption of a fun evening. The AfterBall was deejayed and loud by report. At 0530 sharp the kids pile back on the buses, are dumped back at the police station in Winton (in the pouring rain) where they walk home to promptly crash until the late afternoon on Saturday. I woke up about 0830 to find the morning newspaper already brought in and on the coffee table. So most of my
In my mornings, when the house was quiet this weekend, I went walking in Forest Hill reserve, around the town, and yesterday, up the country roads in the hills above Ohai, a town in the foothills of the Takitimu range about 40 km from Winton. Here are two pictures which capture the early winter mood in Southland that I alluded to in my last posts.
The same company that is paying the bills for injuries and accidents is also charged with ensuring worker's and citizen's safety from accidents. Thus we see wonderfully shocking public service announcements on television. In 15-second shots interspersed between other commercials, a dropped cigarette burns down a child-filled house over the 3 minutes of the commercial break. Or the anti-speeding ad, which shows two cars crashing into a lorry, the car going 5 kph over the speed limit being totally demolished compared to the law-abiding driver's car which has a slight fender bender. Or, most painful to watch, ads that seem like they are
Now the kiwi is an endangered nocturnal bird, and very wary in the wild. We met the cruise operator, along with two other bird lovers, and boarded his boat for a 45 minute cruise in the dusk across Patterson Inlet, to Ocean beach. We pulled up to the jetty just as it was getting black outside. After a briefing, we each took a "torch" and followed the guide up the trail into the forest. I have never walked though the bush in the dark, and since it was a moonless night, it was pitch black. We had to stay bunched together and follow the guide as he swung his torch back and forth in the brush, looking for a kiwi. Since they are solitary birds, each having a 6 hectacre territory, this took some time. We reached the beach, across the island without seeing a bird, and I began to wonder if we weren't on a snipe hunt. But we walked up the beach, and the guide found fresh kiwi tracks. After a bit he stopped suddenly and whispered, "There's a kiwi up ahead." So we crept up the beach in pitch darkness, the surf in our ears, the wind blowing cold on our faces until he suddenly spotlit the bird, who was feeding on amphipods, little crustaceans that were popping out of the rotten seaweed like popcorn. The kiwi looked at us a bit, and then fairly briskly walked up off the beach into the driftwood. We kept on down the beach and coming back, were able to spot the same bird again farther down the beach. This time we got up to within 2 meters of the bird while it was feeding. This was great. The bird didn't seem stressed, but kept feeding for a few minutes, plunging its long beak into the sand, before ambling off into the brush. Another hour's walking down the beaches and back through the brush didn't reveal any more birds, although we could hear the males calling in the hills, and answering the guide's birdcall. But we didn't care. We were now some of the few people privileged to see this ancient, strange creature in the wild.
This is housed in a building noted to be the "largest pyramid in the Southern Hemisphere". I was surprised at how much stuff was crammed into a building that didn't look that large from the outside- the magic of the pyramids I guess. Besides very nice galleries of art, natural history, and local historical objects, there is a tuatara breeding program and a great exhibit called "Beyond the Roaring Forties- New Zealands SubAntarctic Islands". The
Sunday we dragged Liz out and took her for a walk up in the Forest Hill reserve. This lovely chunk of bush is only 5 minutes from Winton. We parked the car at the Forest Hill cemetary and walked 2 km up the road to the trail head, then up into the bush and all the way to the lookout. There was snow on the Takitumu and in Fiordland mountains, and for the first time we could see all of Stewart Island off to the south. This was the third time Vicki and I have walked up there, but this time there were more tui than I have ever seen before. They were singing like mad, and I managed to get a few photographs (difficult!) and record their
Now that got me thinking. You can imagine how that would go over in the United States, where we call in the Hazmat team for a nosebleed at nursery school! Yet in New Zealand, the prevalences of blood bourne diseases are very low. The nurses are surely immunized against Hepatitis B, and other blood bourne infections are difficult to transmit by "splash". It probably makes a lot of sense to save the money used for gloves, and use it for better needle-stick boxes and advanced punture-prevention kits.
However, at the far end of that extreme, many patients take Buccaline Berna, a pack of 7 tablets, costing around NZ$65, containing "1000 Million PNEUMOCOCCUS I, II, III, 1000 Million STREPTOCOCCUS, 1000 Million STAPHYLOCOCCUS, 1500 Million HAEMOPHILUS INFLUENZAE, 25mg FEL BOVIS SICC", i.e. dead bacteria. These tablets are
So there is the answer to my question of "why is pneumococcal vaccine funded and promoted in America but not in New Zealand?". We fund it in America for the same reason that E.T. the extraterrestrial is locked away in a giant sterile bubble by men in spacesuits. For the same reason that we worry so much about bioterrorism and less about "two guys in a fishing boat with a nuclear weapon motoring up the Chesapeake". Perhaps we American doctors and patients should become more aware of this phobia, and rethink our attitudes. After all, there is
Example #3. A man in his 50s came in complaining of constipation. He had all kinds of reasons why he should be constipated; change in diet, he never exercised, etc. He just wanted some medicine to take care of it. Review of systems and symptoms all totally negative, "just give me a good laxative please, doctor". Something just didn't seem right. What did the stools look like? Well, this is a problem in New Zealand, because the design of the toilets here is different. They are very funnel shaped and deep and narrow at the bottom. Most of the time they are in dark bathrooms. And the water closets flush them with tremendous force. And no one "ever looks" anywhere in the world of course, but if they did they'd have a heck of a time seeing anything in these toilets. So he couldn't tell me, but as I pressed my history, it developed that he had not had a satisfyingly large stool ever in the last 6 months, and they seemed to becoming smaller and smaller. Now this is a classic "medical school" history of altered bowel habit. I had a heck of a time doing a rectal exam on this man, who could not relax; and an even harder time convincing him that he needed a colonoscopy. However, he finally relented. Result: rectal carcinoma. I just had a bad feeling about his history.
The Shrek frenzy culminated this week with his
An open house for the odd bird made the national telly news programs, as well as being picked up by all the regional newspapers. Liz has been enjoying her two weeks off for Easter School Holiday, walking daily with Vicki, shopping for a dress for the "Ball" coming in June, and just lazing around the house. While they've had fun spending "dad's hard-earned money", I was on-call over the last weekend in Invercargill. This involved working at the Urgent Doctor clinic. On Saturday, I saw patients in the office from 0930 until 10 pm, with a 1200-1400 pm lunch break and an 1800-2000 "tea break". On Sunday, my relieving doctor and I swapped places, and I worked in the office during his breaks. On Sunday when I was "2nd call" I was also on call for home visit, but there weren't any. During my time between breaks I drove down to